I don't know how to explain to someone that what I am doing with this life is not for me. It is so hard to have people understand that I believe that the life God has so graciously blessed me with is not really for me to decide and that ultimately I'm just the puppet. I'm just here to be seen because God knows how hard it is to believe without seeing. Now hold on one second....I am in no way shape or form saying that I am God, I am just saying that I am His messenger spreading His love and grace throughout the world, wherever that may be.

This past November God placed on my heart that school is not what he has in mind for me right now. I have heard so much vindication of what God has told me through sermons, prayers, books(the Bible) that I know God's hand is in all of this. So now is my time to prepare myself for whatever it may be that He has in store for me.

Am I scared? Out of my mind scared, but God is good, and through me I will allow His goodness to shine because I am going to live as a child of light.

So for whoever may read this between now and the day you die, I ask that you might pray. Not for me. But for whatever God may be preparing me for. I know that no one can never receive enough prayer, but I fear that there are so many people out there who have never received even a quick bedtime prayer. So I ask that you might pray for those who I may encounter over the next week, month, year, or decade. I ask that you might pray for there ears to be open and hearts to be softened because we all know that this whole salvation story isn't easy, especially when you live in a land full of hatred and despair.

"Dear brothers and sisters, I want you to understand that the gospel message I preach is not based on mere human reasoning. I received my message from no human source, and no one taught me. Instead, I received it by direct revelation from Jesus Christ."
Galations 1:11